I have real improvement.
There’s been improvement along the way: no longer having intensely sharp cramping, seizing pelvic floor muscles when I have to poop; the easing of residual muscle tension post-dilator; the easing of post-sex soreness. Today I discovered that the psoas-related deep pelvic pain has lessened immensely.
At the risk of being too graphic, I haven’t been able to take a full-on, no-holding-back pounding for years, a lot of them, without at least some muscular discomfort. And today I did. There are several things that I did today that would have caused me discomfort before and didn’t today.
It’s not totally better, of course. I still have some of the deep pelvic pain. But this is the first real improved comfort during sex that I’ve seen. I love it. I love it so much.
And labial pulling is totally helping the fascia over my urethra, which didn’t get irritated with either partner today.
I’m so relieved. So, so relieved. I cannot wait to keep getting even better, and having better, more worry-free sex, and feeling healthier, and sharing more things with my fantastic partners without the preoccupation with how my muscles will respond.
ETA: And the dilator, it slipped all the way in, without a single bit of discomfort or resistance or pain, for the first time ever. Ever. So much relief and gratitude.